Today I am actually ok. I feel content in a way. Not really happy but not consumed with thoughts. So I don’t want to delve to much intonalysing this emotion. I want to just accept that today I am ok & hold onto this. Knowing that on the other side of my destress & pain there is a calm. I think this is because I have even formulating a plan and thinking of my future. The word there being MY future. Not ours or his, just mine. I find comfort in plans and organization. I find strength in knowing where I am going. Well planning where I am going. As non of the plans ever go to plan, he’ll that’s how I ended up in this mess. Burn right now. I am doing ok.
Had to add two extra pictures of me actually looking a bit happy!